Tuesday, January 29, 2002

Short update...

Went for a job interview ystday. Hopefully it works out fine thn I'll have a job. Chris gog for his on Thurday. Hopefully tt's works out too. Hehe...

Bugger's on holiday aft a ping timeout tt day. Haizzz, dunno whn cmin back... So sianzzz... Ntg to do online 'cept playing trivia, chking e-mails, neopets, chking accts at jobsdb n jobstreet and d/l songs... Jus installed audiogalaxy, damn shiok... Yet to start reading BHD the online book cos I jus starting reading Angela's Ashes n kinda addicted to it... Hehe...

Ntg else to blabber abt... Next entry perhaps... Oh yah, kinda having flu. Caught the flu bug frm dunno who, 2 suspects on the list.

Friday, January 18, 2002

Re: Grievances

Another entry before I go... As the title suggest, mayb u like wana look back on tis entry... (I'm mad to reply to my own entry)

May I be honoured to announce that Manchester United FC is now currently sitting on the TOP of the Premiership table. Hahahahaha... Now who said Man Utd gone case?!?!?! 3-1 defeat = a big hoo-ha lah, 7 pages lah... Hw cm I dun c tt kinda attention now whn Man Utd's leading the pack?

Oh yah, a particular Mr Edwin, u CAN eat yr words now or alternatively, u CAN wipe yr arse and stuff words up…

Hmpf...... Yessssssssssh......... Man Utd's leading.........

Glory Glory Man United... Glory Glory Man United... Glory Glory Man United...

Muuuaaaaaaahhahahahahaha...

Black Hawk Down

Another entry at a weird time of the day. If anyone noticed, my entries are often written in the weee hours in the morning or at night, tt explains y I say it's weird.

Caught Black Hawk Down ystday. Yes... A new movie by Joshua Daniel Hartnett. Hehe... A movie depicting the actual happenings in Mogadishu, Somalia where 18 American soldiers were killed. Great movie. Hmm, y do I say tt... How many movies u watched, how many scripts/ screenplays r written bearing in mind perspectives from the different characters?

Tis film did tt, covered the soliders pov, as well as the Somali militia. I still cant find the script or the screenplay for the movie yet, but some lines spoken by a Somali went something like "tis is our war, a civil war, other pple shld not intervene". Power... The only word I can use to describe those lines. I can't describe y I feel like tt, but whn I heard those lines, I was speechless. Films I've watched, the dialouge has nvr struck me like tt before. It's jus so... er... cant describe... Give up...

I thk the credit goes to the author of the bk, Mark Bowden. He interviewed the American soldiers who fought on tis mission. He aso paid a visit to Mogadishu, to tok to the Somalis thr who fought and tried to understand their pov. I've read 2 interviews which Mark Bowden gave n I'm gog to start reading the book, Black Hawk Down. Its avaliable online at inquirer.philly.com/packages/somalia/, mayb u pple might wana take a look... Heard tt the film's as close as it gets to the bk... US interventions in Somalia led me thking of Vietnam war whr the US army played a part too. Time to search n bkmark pages before starting to read the book...

Off I go...

Tuesday, January 15, 2002

Looking for a job...

Haha, I must be mad to submit an entry at this hour of the day cos I dun usually do it. Just feeling bored and have ntg to do, so I figured tt cmin here to blabber sm stuff might be the best way out to spend sm time before I start to trivia. Hehe... trivia again? Yes... Haha... Piangzzz, gotta cut down, too much time thr already...

Updates abt me? Life's been kinda sweet n nice 'cept for the unemployed part. Been looking at the newspapers the last few days, hoping to land a part time job soon. Well, I've figured that plan C is the best way out. Some of you may thk that I'm mad to thk this way. Slowly I believe that youth only passes one once, let it slip and u'll NEVER EVER get it back.Anyway, since I'm young, I guess it's better for me to take the courses and do the things that I wanna do, before I wana settle down in my life, find a full time job to earn my keep which means no time for these wanna-do-stuff, and realise it's too late.

School term has started again, dunno if the softball pple are gonna have training. Hopefully I'd have the time to join them if thy are gonna train.

Been wanting to mentioned tis but always slipped my mind... Hmm... Last few God knows hw many mths, I haven been tokin to Ping n calling her much compared to the past. On NY's eve, I gave her a call to wish her happy new year. Although the conversation was damn short cos she needed to fix her VCR, the feeling was very nice, extremely nice to be excat... Mayb it's time to catch up the gd times with my jie meis too... Gotta call thm out sm day, n 5 of us, n i mean FIVE of us, no absentees allowed... Saw Ange n Jen tt day... Yue called me tt day too... Winn, if you reading tis, jus wana let you kn that I've been reading yr diary n kn wht's gog on in yr life. Abt those backstabbers, who gives a damn... The dearest dept we were studying in was blardi full of thm...

On to my trivia... Hehe...

Friday, January 11, 2002

Choosing a gate

In the last 2 entries, i rattled some stuff... Hmm...

Sometimes I tell myself after a failed realtionship tt I must learn to be a more selfish lover but I doubt I can do tt cos tt's not how Cancerian women are... Cancerian women are supposed to be passionate n devoted n I thk tt's me. Now I'm hovering between half-opened and opened gates (those who read the last 2 entries can sorta get tis). After the first failed one I told myself tt's it, never ever commit too much in a relationship. But still, being a Cancerian, the "crab" won its way n I got blardi hurt again...I'm so afraid of getting hurt, but whn I develop feelings for someone, I can't stop myself.

What is astrology man? Some things said are so so true. Espeically for me... Choosing to leave it half open or opening it wide again... Or shld I choose to close it, the only way to protect myself? Haizzz...

Back to trivia......

Wednesday, January 09, 2002

Something short

Just a short entry for today before I go play my trivia... Hehe... Anyway, as I'm typing tis, I'm like getting kinda excited... Hehe...

In the past I've never tot of miting pple who I kn over the net, let alone likeing someone. #Cobratrivia's a nice place to hang out and the channel outing was kinda nice cos we all gt to c each other n get to know each other rather thn over thru the net but aso thru toking, sms, blah blah blah... Somehw, we are no longer irc frds but frds, real LIFE frds... After saying tis, pple, go figure... Hehe...

My dear frds, if u're reading tis entry, come to the above channel at galaxynet. It's damn fun... Hehe...

K lah, I'm gog to trivia already... So I'm ending tis entry here...

Sunday, January 06, 2002

New entry for the New Year

First entry for the New Year...

So many things happened since the last entry. And all of the sudden I had developed a habit of reading past entries before writing new ones.

I can’t recall what happened on the 23rd of Dec, but I hanged out on the 24th n 25th wif Kevin, Jan n Zhou… 25th was a nice day, very nice…

I guess I was playing trivia like mad from the 26th to the 30th, as usual… At home doin ntg, jus trivia, chatting, phonecalls. A voice nagging in my head to start on my resume, but I jus pushed it aside…

31st, hanged out wif Jan n Zhou. Went to have dinner n thy came over to spend the nite at my place. Hong came over for a while, while his bro was at his gf’s place somewhr in my estate…

1st day 2002, jus slipped past like tt… was practically online almost the whole day…

And the whole of last week? Ditto… Blardi hell, really no life lor… It’s like everyday at home, eat, zzz, phone, chat, trivia… A voice beside me, yes beside me, (read: my mum) nagging like siao… Resume? Yes, abt tt lor, but haizz, I’m still not doin anythg abt it yet. I’m so damn blardi lazy… Mayb its time to sit down n thk wht I really want…

Plan A: Go Murdoch? I guess tt degree can wait… I’m broke n I nd money… Once I’m in Australia, thr are stuff which I wana do, but I can’t…

Plan B: Look for a full time job? That is gd… Stable income… Day in, day out, work work work… At least I can get money…

Plan C: Look for a part-time job? This might b better afterall… I have the money n time… Time is impt to me, cos thr are stuff which I wana do n if I hold a full-time job (read: shifts… yes, tis is the job nature), I wun have the time to do… But, money? A full-time job pays more… Haizzz…

And yes, I’m lazy to thk abt such stuff too…

Some songs have been playing in my mind. One of them is by (I thk) Hardaway… It goes like, “What is love, baby dun hurt me, baby dun hurt me, no more…” Another is Desperado by Eagles, I dunno y but I jus can’t bring myself to type out the lyrics… Those who’ve heard tis song b4, go figure…

Eagles singing tt song to me? Mayb… Mayb its him, mayb he took so much of my love n my heart away. I suspect myself... What if I happen to have feelings for someone, will I open up my heart as much as I did? Will I open up the gates or the fences? Will I commit as much? Finally, will I be able to love him deeply? Mayb I’m afraid of failure, afraid that the next relationship will not work out. Everythg must try… Yes I know tt, but if I tried, really hard n yet it still failed? A Chinese song once had the lyrics “ bei ai shi xing fu, ai ren shi tong ku”, it means being loved by someone is a fortune, but loving someone is painful… Why can’t thr b a balanced of both? If 2 pple love each other equally, thr wun be broken hearts n breakups rite? Haizzz, I really dunno…

Shucks, I better start thking wht I wan now soon lor… Argh…….. Hate tis type of thking stuff, really hate to make decisions whn at crossroads. But I do need to lead myself the way I wana live rite? Haizzzzzzzz….